Michael Jackson, Dead

Just sad. Surreal.

An icon for my generation, before the drama and accusations took him down.

 I remember dancing to Thriller with my best friends in our front yards.

If not for MJ, we wouldn’t have Weird Al’s “I’m Fat!”

I was actually thinking about Michael Jackson this morning. I used to have this poster of him and I threw it away when I started “hating” him when I was a teen and Im’ trying to remember now why I was thinking about that poster this morning. I still can’t figure out why I was thinking about it, but if I do, I’ll update this!

 The last hour has been weird, people denying his death, saying he’s not dead, he’s in a coma. TMZ showing that he was dead around 2:30pm. All of the major news venues (MSN, CNN, Google) showing he was taken to UCLA Medical Center, but not confirming his death. Other than TMZ, the first place that confirmed was LATimes.com, which was after 3:30pm. All of the speculation was weird.

Ode to Dork Tab Users, Frost Style

Jawing Bone
Frosty Snow

Something there is that doesn’t love a Bluetooth headset,
That sends one’s hands towards the chattering throat
To shake the voice out of the wearer in the sun
And shove that headset into the smallest gap one can find.
While mending the gaps in my chainlink fence
I heard my neighbor’s voice from the field beyond
And thinking he spoke to me, turned in humble greeting;
But the jerk was just chattering on his headset
About whatever stupid crap matters to stupid crapheads
To a fellow tool somewhere far off, unseen, but no doubt
Also getting on everybody’s nerves around him.
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his stupid,
Empty, ugly, loud, obnoxious, self-centered, smug,
Pompous, asinine, ignorant, childish, annoying head:
“Bluetooth users make lousy neighbors.”

 Found on Woot.com

6/9

Nice date :)

Today I worked.

I still have a cough

My back has been hurting

since Sunday night :(

Coughing makes the pain worse.

Going to the chiropractor

then to sushi and shopping

with Holly.

Hoping to find something

that will look good on me

for Vegas this weekend!

Must play Mario Galaxy

when I get home.

2/366

So I skipped a day.

Yesterday

- Bad day at work, but I don’t like to talk about work outside of work hours, so I’m over it right now.

- Game night: I cooked swedish meatballs, gravy, & lingon berry sauce (from IKEA) with a side of steamed broccoli. We played Puerto Rico. Sage won, Dustin got second place, I got third, John, placed last (it was his first time playing).

Today

- Felt sick this morning, wrote boss man an email and then went back to sleep.

- Woke up at 12:30 & called Sage to see if he would bring me lunch. I had a fresco taco & some rice & beans from Taco Bell. Yum!

- Went to my Weight Watchers meeting real quick to weigh in. I gained 0.2 lbs. Not really sure why, but that’s really not much, so yeah, I’m not upset. Next week I will be down more to make up for the 0.2 lb gain.

Not lookin’ so hot today with this cold going on.

1/365

Going to try to do posts daily, nothing big…

Today

- Woke up & didn’t want to get out of bed

- Went to work

- Did fairly well on Weight Watchers

- Uploaded pictures to computer, backed up on external hard drive.

- Watched the last “Tonight Show with Jay Leno” on DVR.

-  Made polenta & home made tomato sauce for dinner, added a few Swedish meatballs.


Feelings, nothing more than feelings

I’m feeling a little crazy.

My cat is acting weird. She’s all twitchy. Acts like something is chasing her, but nothing is there. Her tail is all flippity around and she keeps licking it and biting and licking her feet. She looks miserable.

I looked up her symptoms and behavior and found a lot of articles on Feline Hyperaesthesia Syndrome (FHS). It says that they don’t know what causes it and the only treatments are making sure to feed them high quality food, which I do already, provide a stimulating environment (check), and then if all else failes, drugs that calm them down.

A couple of things are really bothering me. None of these articles say that this problem results in the cat’s death, but it does change their personality and it can make them very agressive. She’s already showing signs of this. She is such a good cat with a great personality, the best cat I’ve ever had. I’m so frustrated and sad.

I feel like I have bad luck with pets. Maybe I did something awful and this is my punishment. After I had to have Janie put to sleep when she was only 3 (read this - http://tiffanietales.com/?p=95), it took me a LONG time to get myself to get another pet. To be having issues with her this early on is unbearable. I can’t even deal with taking her to the vet because I get so nervous and worked up because of past experiences.

So this whole situation is making me all tense and stressed out. On top of all of that, I have gained 4 pounds in the last 3 weeks and I don’t feel too good about that. I have really tried to stick to Weight Watchers better this last week, so we’ll see what happens on the scale tomorrow.

I’m also going to take the cat to the vet. :(

Prop 8 - The Musical

First Kiss

Heart, a bass drum in my chest

pressed against your own drumming

Dizzy euphoria, like the first step off of a carousel

My hand slides toward your shoulder

absorbing the texture, bumps, lines of your skin

across your neck

and the palm of my hand rests

against your cheek

as your touch dances along my jaw

fingers act as eyes in the darkness

guiding me near.

Your warm, moist breath on my mouth

both of us waiting for the other

to move

to bridge that last inch of separation

between our lips.

Inhaling the moment,

the anticipation,

the ecstasy,

the excitement,

the last second before

the first kiss.

After Bailout, AIG Executives Head to Resort

UPDATED: 11:31 a.m.

Less than a week after the federal government offered an $85 billion bailout to insurance giant AIG, the company held a week-long retreat for its executives at the luxury St. Regis Resort in Monarch Beach, Calif., running up a tab of $440,000, Rep. Henry Waxman (D-Calif.) said today at the the opening of a House committee hearing about the near-failure of the insurance giant.

Showing a photograph of the resort, Waxman said the executives spent $200,000 for rooms, $150,000 for meals and $23,000 for the spa.

“Less than a week after the taxpayers rescued AIG, company executives could be found wining and dining at one of the most exclusive resorts in the nation,” Waxman said. “We will ask whether any of this makes sense. ”

The committee will ask the company’s executives about their multimillion-dollar pay packages — some of which they continue to receive — as well as who bears responsibility for the company’s high-risk investment portfolio, which led to its near collapse just weeks ago.

“They were getting their manicures, their pedicures, massages, their facials while the American people were paying their bills,” thundered Rep. Elijah E. Cummings (D-Md.), of the executive retreat at the Monarch Resort.

The House committee, which took on executive compensation at bankrupt Wall Street firm Lehman Brothers yesterday, has received “tens of thousands” of pages of documents from AIG, Waxman said.

Those documents show that as the company’s risky investments began to implode, the company altered its generous executive pay plan to pay out regardless of such losses.
AIG lost over $5 billion in the last quarter of 2007 due its risky financial products division, Waxman said. Yet in March 2008, when the company’s compensation committee met to award bonuses, Chief Executive Martin Sullivan urged the committee to ignore those losses, which should have slashed bonuses.

But the board agreed to ignore the losses from the financial products division and gave Sullivan a cash bonus of over $5 million. The board also approved a new compensation contract for Sullivan that gave him a golden parachute of $15 million, Waxman said.

Joseph Cassano, the executive in charge of the company’s troubled financial products division, received more than $280 million over the last eight years, Waxman said. Even after he was terminated in February as his investments turned sour, the company allowed him to keep up to $34 million in unvested bonuses and put him on a $1 million-a-month retainer. He continues to receive $1 million a month, Waxman said.

Waxman also looked skeptically at the executives’ defense that the troubles in the business had to do with larger economic forces and not their own bad decisions.
When a former AIG auditor, Joseph St. Denis, expressed concerns, Cassano told him “I have deliberately excluded you from the valuation … because I was concerned that you would pollute the process,” according to Waxman.

St. Denis resigned in protest.

PricewaterhouseCoopers, AIG’s auditor, told the company in March 2008 that the “root cause” of AIG’s problems was that people assessing risk did not have enough access to the financial products division, where the risky investments originated.
Waxman further suggested that Sullivan had deliberately misled investors.

On Dec. 5, 2007, Sullivan expressed confidence to investors. But a week before, PricewaterhouseCoopers warned Sullivan that the company “could have a material weakness relating to these area,” committee members said.

One year ago…

I receive a “Quote of the Day” every day. I want to share the one I received today.

“One day at a time - this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone: and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.”

I thought I would get through the day without many tears, but when I got the quote, things changed.
I miss you Travis. We all do.